In order to change something, you have to stay in the thing and be the change. You have to hold your place till the opportunity arises to crush it all.
Last night I filmed a scene in a bathroom in the mirror…and it was about me…my character… growing old…No. ..me ..my character…being old…it was a camera on my skin in my face and in my soul saying…look what you are so scared of?…these wrinkles?…these tiny lines?…this skin?…this is what you are scared of?
I played the scared woman and with that I exited the bathroom and felt a slow rush that took about two hours to process…
it was a FUCK YOU Rush.
When I exited the bathroom the three woman on set were discussing to themselves their own personal need for BOTOX and sleeping on their back…after watching my scene on the monitor-my face has caused them to fear the future …. what is coming and in that…
in that I realized I am the future. I am beyond. I am liberated from wondering what it will look like because I am there….on the train and I bought my ticket and I am not trying to force myself in the kiddie rides or roles…I am fully committed to being OLD…Wise…Beautiful….Kind….and ME…..as I am….as I become….
And those around me….I know they love me….for me…not for my tight face or falsies in my breast…all of that BS is gone…so they ..those that love me… love me ……for me… and in that…in that….in that….I am free…
