Woke up this morning and found myself in the light of the moon.
I was asking the universe to send me energy and then I looked down and my skin was covered in rays of light and shadows and i tried to take a photo but the iPhone failed me.
I was dancing in the moonlight in my back yard in the nude and clarity spilled upon me. I do my OWN work from now on about MYSELF.
Pretending I need to be part of other peoples work to be heard is xhausting and Pleaservile.
Even this casting submitions on backstage…
It is all still a small thread of NOT ENOUGH issue that pretends i can buffer and wait till I am ENOGH but as I preach…we are all enough…have always been enough…
Slow down Susie…relax and take your time YOUR TIME….build your ONE PERSON PIECE and take it from there…
Remember how hard it was just to leave the school and you went back then..maybe you needed them…but like that… you will NEVER look back once you begin this journey of your OWN work…never…
You are not responsible for anyone but yourself and no one is responsible for you either…
Daddy was dancing with me in my dream last night…I wish he was here to write a story for my show…
I am happy that most people are into telling their version of Susie for part of my play…and that know I will be fine with whatever they say becasue in the end I know a lot about who I am and who I am not and the distnace i try and close between the two through futile attempts of being OTHER than me..
For me I have learned who I am throgh learning who I am not and that takes a BRAVE PRINCESS TO go there…risk ego and structure and test the boundaries…but I have and I do becasue it is out my respect for what eludes me that I gain respect for those that are the ELUDED thing.
It is a moondance for me…a moement in the moon to take my time and be myself-for myself and no other…ha…easy to say…
S
