YOU CHANGED! Yes, I have figured out how to transmute energy in the micro second and although I often want to scream and yell like I used to...I smile and breath and take that energy and allow it to burn off more of my own ego. My ego that thinks…
Playing Melania
Working with a director that asks me to use my own personal past pains for a character is something I have often advised my students NOT to do. However, being in the situation myself it is not that easy to NOT do it. The director wants me to associate myself…
What if you had to play…
Having the dexterity of thought is important for actors. It causes us to be in the FLOW state often. Our belief system has to be let go of often. Abandoning your own point of view and entering into another perspective -challenges you to the core....questions your preconceived judgement and the…
cog·ni·tive dis·so·nance
Why is there a fight when we are given new information about something? Why can't we just abort the false information and move ahead? cog·ni·tive dis·so·nance: the state of having inconsistent thoughts, beliefs, or attitudes, especially as relating to behavioral decisions and attitude change. I like to picture CD as…
“Looks like Hashimoto’s” he said …
it has been about three weeks of me finding out I had a nodule to going to my first endocrinologist appointment. I had a biopsy and blood and now I wait. I had lots of signs...lots....but i have taken supplements to alleviate them and so the signs disappear a bit...and…
INtegration of character
I found this word today by asking my husband what he felt the opposite of segregation was. I had been segregated my life these past years to dissect them. It had began with the death of my father the several years of therapy and the hitting of a brick wall…
Integration of Self
INTEGRATION I found this word today by asking my husband what he felt the opposite of segregation was. I had been segregated by life these back years to dissect them. It had began with the death of my father the several years of therapy and the hitting of a brick…
Sad today and yesterday…deep sadness that was not all mine…
Acting has made me an empath by trade. Since I tend to take work home with me, I can feel for other people...as I walk our quiet little neighborhood. I slip off the path and take a walk alone thought the empty streets but for connection seekers desperately hoping to…
home
i am sitting in my front yard- it is 5:07 am. I am up. I have been up since 3:01- I went to bed a little too early or my mind is racing or perhaps I am in recasting...I am in understanding..I am in them both..... The story is that…
space matters
having a room- a studio- a space- to go to the past three months has been a game changer to me . A room for no other real reason but to meet myself as myself. A room with my things and a mirror...myself. we are approaching a lock down due…