Author: Susie Taylor

Last year on December 11, I found out I had a membership to THE Soho house. I have been enjoying it all year but especially these last two months. I have devoted my FRIDAYS to RELAXING with my dear friend MARIA. We take the boys to school early and then we begin our full day or R and R.

IT has proven a very very productive venture. In these months I have learned to manage my time. Work on several projects without getting overwhelmed, connect with my girl freinds and just work out and have fun,

I love the SOHO house and I DEFY anyone to say anything bad about it.

It suits me..the women’s locker room is a breath of feminine elegance that ONLY women can enjoy and the feminine vibe and conversation that is held there is needed in our GENDER assimilated society.

I like being with GIRLS- Not Sexually… but for company and for companionship. Most for my freinds are women…but for a few…and I love that…and I am thankful that my DEAR FREIND MARIA and all her wonderfulness chooses to spend her FRIDAYS with me….

Maria and I became freinds about 7 years ago during T Ball and ever since we have been mostly in each other’s lives….I am happy for that…and I think she is too and our two boys love their two boys and it all seems to work out really well..

I am thankful to have a close companion on this ride called Motherhood////

I went off coffee about two weeks ago while I was doing a three day detox on the Danette May diet. I went off and calmed down and when it was time to go back on…I thought…maybe just decaf…

So I have been on decaf these past few weeks and I have NOT fought with Steve. I have been very energized and have seemed to loose that tummy I was about to accept.

Coffee and Susie are not a great fit. From the position I am now, I can tell you I am even sweeter off cafine and people don’t drive me nuts and I am better at a slower reaction towards things and I can make better choices in how I want to handle my critics.

I am deliberate and free off of coffee and I like it.
I hope I remember I am a Decaf girl and remain that way for a while becasue I know in my heart that my heart is better for it.

Hello- My name is Susie K Taylor I am an Actor and I created and teach a class that uses acting techniques to heal emotional pains.

I was born and raised in Miami. My father practiced medicine and my mother is an artist. So- there you go.

A brief history of why I created this class SURF was that I was dealing with the death of my father and simultaneously trying to return to my acting career I had put on hold for almost a decade.

I was in therapy and I was renting a room at IRON FLOWER to try and remember myself and my acting chops through movement …get my emotional scales up to par and my body back in actor shape…

What I found was that through remembering my acting classes and combining movement techniques I studied…I created a way OUT…

I way out of the role of the grieving daughter.

This took time..I was teaching this since 2014 and I then began to perfect it at an acting school where I was a professor of movement..and now I have a class, a process and I guess a way of moving through this world that is working for me and others…

It is a movement class that teaches us all how to get out of character and approach the day, the story, the play, from a lesser charged point of view.

So how do we do that…

First we prepare our mind and our heart to accept a new conversation..another point of view…

Then we warm up our bodies with a sort of follow the leader based movement Vocabulary we learn ..and then we perform…

Now that we are opened and connected and also protected we sacrifice a story.

The student offers up a STORY with the full understanding that
1) it will be fully heard…
2) it will be fully believed
3) it will then be challeneged
4) it may turn out to not be true…anymore

The pain body can live in the present and that is a problem…If the pain is not happening right now…and we pretend and remind ourselves it is..then we are recreating that trauma over and over again and doubling down on it..

It can get very damaging…to the actor and to anyone around them

My belief is that we are NOT our stories and that we can learn to forgive them and move on..

The question is…then who are you?

I believe you are just lightness…at our core we are all creative beings and that we can emulate the happiness in our heart …if we are willing to see that and recieve that.

Most people- most people’s Ego’s don’t enjoy that because there isn’t anything to really HOLD onto…

Being Uncharged…which I work on every day….is the feeling that nothing – after you leave it- pulls on you too much…Good or bad..

When you are with that “ high charged real time situation” you navigate through it like an actor in a play and then when you leave …you walk out of the STORY…you are not threaded to it.

I have done this work  with almost all my family members I have had CHARGES from..some I went to personally and some I did the work in the room and that was enough…I have even gone back to exes and asked them to forgive me…for holding them in the negative energy all these years because our thoughts are powerful and if you believe you can do anything then you have to also believe you can hurt people our thoughts.

Each of these releases…released me..From….My roles that I was playing…like pleaser, seducer, manipulator. and victim started to get softer and softer and my awareness of not HOLDING onto any new pain became very conscious..

Ok..

SO the performance aspect of my class has a four step process that can be repeated as many time as needed and can start from the beginning or the end..

SURF
Story Understanding, Recasting. Flow

Actors are an important part of our society and when we are not healthy we can affect the society as a hole. Maybe that goes for all artist. Our power to communicate is our calling and if we are open and a viable to communicate and strengthen the pain body…well then that is what we will do to a society…create more pain

I challenger the artist of today to reimagine our world…another version than what is playing on the boob tube…a kinder version and PAINT and PLAY THAT…because everything else is just TRIGGERS and we need to as artist to end the STORY by not participating in it anymore..

LOVE SUSIE

WHen I lived in the City and I was working as a waitress, a cigar girl a trainer and an actress i auditioned for a pharma voice over. It was for obsessive compulsive disorder.

The video they showed us was a woman who was an indoor cyclist who was riding around in circles…I remember my line was….somethign like…

“Hello, my name is Sally…and I have obsessive compulsive disorder” then you woudl see this woman going round and round on this course….I can’t remember what happened…if I got paid or not but I got the gig…we recorded it…they made the commercial and then I was told the client felt the whole thing was too humorous…

Anyway…I went yesterday into a sound recording studio and began to build up my reel for voice over. I am good at this and it is very fun and I have been meaning to do this for two decades…boy what having kid and raising a fmaily and being married and being kind can cost you…HA

I am happy to inform those that are still in it that all the muscles strength you build from these parts of your life will indeed strengthen your ability to pursue your purpose when you get there…to because of the things that happened but just the strength and dexterity you created from dealing with them…becasue that is the biggest skill set…HOW YOU DEAL

So here are my two commercials….I am very excited

Commercial ONE

Commercial Two

Mia wrote me a letter and I wanted to share it…I had asked her to …well asked all the people I loved to write a monologue about me for a play I was doing and she was the first to write back and the only one to write back without reminding…Mia is my freind…someone I woudl have never met in normal circumstances…but still…a person I respect – this is what she wrote…sort of a love letter from my point of view…

The 1st day I met you I wasnt sure what to think or how I felt, not just because I was fresh out of the hospital doped up on prescription pain killers but because you’re quirky and eccentric, full of energy. I for sure can say I’ve never met anyone like you before and anyone else that came close I tried to stay far away from because that kind of energy usually overwhelms and irritates me. Oddly you were different and instead of feeling overwhelmed or irritated I appreciated it. All that energy you have uplifted me in one of the worst times in my life.
You are an amazing person, you have to be special to get me to view and see something different as stubborn as I am. We both obviously come from two very different places in life and you showed me that the same thing I feared about you, I was wrongly doing myself but I’m glad we both gave each other a chance. Never once did I feel like you were judging me or bringing me even more down by feeling sorry for me. And I learned that even women that are educated, brought up in a great family, and environment can be humble and amazing not the stereotypical American Jewish Princess I thought you were going to be lol. You’re a strong tough woman and have so much courage and I thank you for coming to one of the roughest cities in Miami to listen to my bullshit while I’m rubbing medication on freshly stapled wounds and not freaking out or letting that scare you away from keeping in contact with me. I also thank you for not letting my criminal background stop you from trusting me I know your husband was probably advising you
Against letting someone like me into your home LOL.

THis woman mother lover is something of a force and if her opportunities were better or rather she could kill her demons she’s run this world…and all of us in it…sending her love and light and power that she already has in the tips of her fingers.

We here at Susie land have several version of ourselves. Pershaps it is due to the fact that I know myselves -I hear my selves- and I recognize when I am being a certain version of myself when I am not my True-Self.

I believe this version in particular.

But the The judgy version ( let’s call her JV) that thinks things I am embarrassed to share is the most dangerous and the most soft spoken. Not that she isn’t constantly speaking- she is but in whispers…she works better hidden in the corners…BUT

My when my TrueSue can HEAR JV and call he out..JV dies a little she is absorbed a little bit by TRUESUE and JV is left…a little …less mean, less limiting, less critical and that

That is progress.. ..

Question…will Contentment fuel income?

Time is folding in on us. I am meeting up with my younger self and we are totally in love with each other. Steve is passing people from his past and there is not a thread holding him. He is lighter and I am lighter and the concept of flying doesn’t feel so foreign.

Being married and being a wife and a mother and dealing with family members on all sides is a decade journey in negotiations— if they happen to be involved in your life. The cold distant type may seem like a problem but imagine the warm engaging type…those actually need your attention and your self awareness and in the end your love to the utmost.

Steve and I both have families that engage…desire…want and yearn to be involved…this is like a 40 person play that has to be wrangled…and for years I have attempted it but this year…

I fired myself. I am devoting myself to my work and focusing on my nuclear family and not feeling in any way beholden to the rest of them. I gave almost 20 years of my best and I still couldn’t play the role well so I’ll bid goodbye and stick to what I play best. I play ACTOR best…the girl that has the job that can’t make it RoLE…the one that is too busy to entertain any bizarre concept of not being good enough in my Brian becasue —-I don’t have time for that.

I am not nor never will be the ideal family member in a CUBAN family. I am not – even after all these years- good at the way they maneuver..each other…
Funny how cultures have this lineage of understanding that you will never know unless you are born into it…it is threaded into their DNA and you can’t change DNA.

I love them…with all my heart but looking back this constant need to please has broken me at my knees and I have let myself and my craft down.

There comes a time when you realize that if not now…if not fully now…for the love and joy of it…then when…

And Since i have no issues and no pretense to the type of acting I do other than ( for now) I have no desire to be an angry B*tch..but other than that…i am open to being here as an actor doing the work that I believe actors can and should be doing..Helping people communicate their truth…whatever that is.

Steve and I had out first date infont of the Cleavelander. I believe my sister was working there and I remember walking Steve over to her..I think he was wearing a red top and shorts and the top was tucked…My sisters face was priceless….”He’s taller than me!” She said as she waited on the tables extending down the sidewalk.

I went to the beach with Steve ( what would end up being one of three dates I would have that day- two with soon to be Doctors and then this guy) and I was wearing a turquoise bikini and I was fit and he was Anamored of my stomach and that was what I had…a great ass and nice abs and we stayed there talking about god and Jesus and this man was so OFF and I disagreed with everything about it but I loved it too. He was kind of sexy in a dorky way and sweet in a real way and smart in a faithful way and most importantly…he believed in something and THAT is the sexiest thing ever…even if I didn’tagree with him-

So as he sat across from me today talking – or as he woke me up with a kiss this morning and I grabbed him with delight…I have to say that the boy on the beach is peaking his head up…up from all this work of trying to grow up and that boy..that faithfilled kind boy is blossoming in my line of sight into this Alpha being that is loving and kind and protective and warm and AWAKE…

I adore what is becoming of Steve and what I am becoming in his company.

Ever since I was in high school I was drawn to South Beach. My best freinds and I woudl even risk detention and more by forging doctor notes to get us excused from skipping a few periods of class. Reason being we had wanted to see if we could get from our school to the beach on a Bus. I have no idea how we managed it becasue I am a Jewish girl from Miami and a BUS was not my mode but on we went and over th bridge we went and giggling we went till our feet hit the sand. In jeans we’d drop back and let the sun ignite our souls..buy bathing suits from the woman passing my and eventually bid adue and hop on the bus and head back to school just in time I suppose to grab the metro rail home.

SO before I could drive I was drawn there so it makes sense I would spend my days there now too. I hang out at SOHO house often and teach a class on WEst at Tropical Vinyasa and on Thursday the 18th of October I wil be speaking for the first time in public about my class for the Miami Beach Chamber of Commerse Health and Wellness committee. My FIrst Power Point presentation and I have testimonials and photos and videos as examples of the why and how. Four years of work to find the meaning of it all…FREEDOM….

I am honored to live this life….Becasue all day long

I am auditioning, getting cast in well paying gigs, part of a Shakespeare company that reads plays on scrolls, teaching my class, performing with a theater company in an interactive piece, shooting an indie shot film that is paid! and building a show for the Fringe and about to cut a voice over tape. I am a working actor. My acting is first and then my classes fit in between and in that I am just always saying yes please- more please…can a happy Actress exist? That was my question and the risk I was willing to take and the answer is … FOR SURE….BRING IT!