I am considering that the issues I have had in the work I have done is due to the lack of restrictions. As an artist being able to explore every angle is important but being able to have a safe SPACE to do it in is equally important. The lack…
Hello…Children
I am thinking that perhaps my desire to heal the lineage has to begin either with the top or the bottom of those available to me. Meaning either the elderly or the younger ones. I have been very resistant about this and yet every time i do my own cards…
Hello…2019
Dear 2019...nice to meet you. I want to say that I was met you wish a bump of my head into the headboard, a kiss in the morning and a very real understanding that I am surly 45. Taking away signs of age are an endless job...aligning with age and…
Acting, Projects, SURFing Process
Goodbye….2018
Last year...love saying that...funny how time allows for distance and yet time is a perception we believe in. Time is nothing...but if enough people agree it links one days and nights on a string... 2018- Thank you... thank you for giving me the strength to remove my fake breast and…
Brrr….the chilling affect of letting go
IT is about a week since we closed...7 days I woke up early and engaged and totally aware of the version of SUSIE that i have developed a functional relationship to. Mrs. Wade is gone...sweet, exhausted, hamstrung and closeted Mrs. Wade is released and all of SUSIS’S parts that aligned…
ABUNDANCY……..through acting
If my frequency is able to affect change then if I am performing and people are being affected I want to use that opportunity to creat a loving change with people. Playing Mrs. Wade was exactly that. I played a lovely character that seemed to garner a great deal of…
2019 —–CLEAN and KIND
last night I had what I can only describe as a near death experience...it was not intentional but it was also very much my fault...I take responsibly for it and in that I own it and don't need to be punished.FREEDOM. Last night a part of me died...DEVON...I believe...the punisher...the…
hello….kind person
I have spent the last two days with very kind people...people I am honored to know and cherish because I believe I can finally understand what being sweet means...what is feels like to be around sweet people and be seen as sweetness. If you are surrounded by people who are…
Actors choose your roles….kindly
The roles you choose for the stage or for your life will become you. Choose kindly. Just because you CAN play a role doesn't mean you need to or have to or should. Just because a story wants to be told doesn't mean you need to be the one to…
Devon….it is time to go.
I get these moods. You can call them that...during my period and I am not of this world...I am foreign to myself and an unwelcome visitor to my family. I claim it is PMS that brings her but recently she arrives after that period and hangs out like a gate…